There is no dignity in this.

see what you don't understand is i coast drom day to day.
this is not living, this is surving.
this is trying to get though this with hearts and wrists intact.
i always feel like i am watching the world though water.
disconnected from it all so readly and yet so hard to reconnect again.
i don't understad why or how this happens to me.
all i know it tomorrow i'll give the world a smile so it don't notice.
and tell it everything is alright.
that way it wont notive me anymore.