walking contradiction

as soon as something nice happens to me and i'm happy
they have to ruin it for me
sometimes i feel like a stranger in my own flat
like i don't really live here i'm just a guest in my own place
the thing is
i want to go home so badly
and i can't i know my mum keeps telling me that my room always there
that i can come home any time i want
that it's alright if i don't want to do this

but it isn't true
i can't let them down
i'm stuck with me all the time.

i know i'm not alright
but they don't have to.

Heros&Cons

She’s left home and has no idea what to do with her soul anymore.
The people who surround her have no idea the thoughts in her head.
The people pretend she doesn’t exist and she doesn’t know what to do.
No one wants to hear what goes on inside her head because she takes them with her
She’ll take you down with her in to the dark.
No one would follow her in to the dark.
All of you jump ship quickly now, go go go
Or she’ll take you down with her.


We wouldn’t want that would we?

Two years ago

My best friend died two years ago today. I can't believe what has happened in the last two years. I miss you more than anything in the world and I know it hasn't been easy for any of us but I'm really feeling it now.