Bring Out The Death Car and We'll Drive Tonight.

Ungrateful bitch, you fucking deserve nothing, you don’t deserve your friends, you don’t deserve the people around you., you don’t deserve the oxygen in your lungs you don’t deserve anything, you don’t deserve to life. What have you ever done for people, what have you ever done to help the people around you except waste there time and efforts. You don’t even deserve your own mind anymore. Go empty the bottle because that’s all you deserve. It should be slow and painful, remind you of all the shit that you have done, and remind you of all the fucking crap that you have done. Your nothing but a sad, scared shitty little kid who has never, and will never make the grade. You too fucking fat, too fucking stupid, too fucking loud, too fucking quiet. You’re fucking nothing, your fucking everything you hate. Hurry up, go on, go on and fucking do it already you fucking coward. You’ve become nothing, you are nothing, you are absolutely nothing. I want to be a kid again, go back and change all of this, I want to wash my eyes and mean everything I say. I want to be a shadow again, every attempt is doomed, all my mistakes could be erased. I fell apart in January but I “fixed” myself for everybody. I know tomorrow isn’t going to get better than this, I don’t a way out. I hope I didn’t hurt too many people on this path, I hope a day comes that makes me forget everything and when I comes I’ll praise the lord and sing it out. I wish the satellites would start to spin out hope in the darkness but there not, call me dumb and call me on it but I never said I knew it all or I would be here for ever, so you cal all go to hell, I don’t believe in love or hope or everything that we do anymore, I don’t believe in you or anything you tell me. The best part of “believe” is the “lie”. There isn’t a change coming soon, I know I lost my way, I’ve sold myself out for nothing, don’t make me a leader I’ll lead you the wrong way, I couldn’t eve save myself, its getting worse every day. “Empty hearts winter riot hopeless blue” I have ideas for falling.